Why I Disappeared – Zero Day Reset

In late January, Hubby and I started the Whole30, where we spent more than 30 days diligently planning meals, watching every morsel we consumed, denying our favorite foods, and losing a butt-load of weight; literally. Our bodies felt AMAZING and FULL of energy!

We began phase 2 of Whole30 at the end of February, reintroducing “bad” foods, and I discovered that grains (especially rice) are my nemesis, while hubby’s gut is strongly averse to gluten. Red wine didn’t present a major issue in moderation, unless I had it with refined sugar (dessert) – then I swell up like the Goodyear blimp. Nonetheless, hubby and I fell off the face of the blog planet right as we entered Whole30 phase 2… so, what happened?

In short, reintroducing foods did not go as planned. We didn’t plan phase 2 very well, so the reintroductions kind of overlapped each other. Reintroduction of foods is supposed to be one very specific thing per week, then back to Whole30 for several subsequent days. We did more like an every-other-day reintroduction of whatever we felt like eating.

As if that wasn’t enough to derail us, two weeks into reintroducing non-compliant foods, an opportunity arose for us to head to London and Madrid together. We both made a conscious decision to throw all eating plans out the window and indulge to our hearts’ contents while overseas… and it was glorious… at least, at first.

During the first few days on “vacation,” we had burgers, lobster soaking with butter, cakes for breakfast, pastries, sangria, wonderful Spanish dishes, and plenty of other treats. At first, we were surprised at how much less sugar the Brits and Spaniards put into their dessert, and how they were still so so so delicious.

However, eating half a cake or four pastries at a time kind of made up for the sugar reduction. By day three of vacation, we were both swollen, lethargic and our guts were miserable. Still, we persevered.

Not to disrupt a trend, we continued our indulgence through the six days, and our cravings dragons were back with a vengeance. The noticeable, negative changes in our bodies, cognition, and energy in that short time did nothing to deter us. Our justification remained, “We will get back on track when we get home.” That vacation was in mid-March; it’s May. Needless to say, both of us have the willpower of a carp.

Yesterday, I opened my eyes in the morning to find Spring has completely sprung, dogwoods in bloom, birds singing, and my ankles swollen as fuck! The scale is back up eight pounds out of the 20 I lost, and the bloat-factor is manatee status. I should not be feeling this gross on such a beautiful day! I decided yesterday morning that “today” was the last day I was going to be eating poorly for awhile. However, I needed closure and to have a proper goodbye with my favorites.

I ceremoniously picked up some Popeye’s chicken and a Nothing Bundt Cakes red velvet bundtini. It was an event to behold. I ate both until I was so stuffed, it hurt. I wanted to be conscious of how bad I could feel from eating something that tastes soooo good. I wanted to suffer.

My little plan worked. I was up most of the night with a stomach ache and all other nasty things that result from eating horrible food. Suffering was achieved.

When I awakened this morning, I couldn’t find my ankles. My skin feels like it is going to burst open from edema. Poor little piggies! My feet used to be the only skinny thing on me!

I had a chat with hubby about how to start over and get back on our healthy track. While we both loved how our BODIES felt on Whole30, and we had amazing results, the fact is that our MINDS were MISERABLE. Food became extremely unenjoyable, there were very few options for variety, and it was a serious hassle trying to eat out or hang with friends.

After looking at Keto, Whole30, Weight Watchers, and Paleo, we decided that we will go the Paleo route this time.

Paleo likely has more longevity and is more of a lifestyle change, plus he and I have both eaten the Paleo way in the past and were successful for long periods of time. We know the weight loss will be much slower-going than Whole30, but we feel this path is more sustainable and easier to adopt.

Our Paleo journey begins today, first by downloading the nom nom paleo app (I just love Michelle’s creativity with the Instant Pot) on our phones. Breakfast was egg whites cooked in coconut oil with spinach, and Pederson’s Whole30-approved bacon.

Next, we will be doing some grocery shopping.

This time, we can prep and cook in a REAL kitchen! During the previous Whole30 attempt, our kitchen was being remodeled, and we had to make do with the basement bar, a tiny sink, and two induction hot plates; a true test to a new marriage. Now, we have a real stove, microwave, dishwasher, and garbage disposal; all of which I will NEVER take for granted again. Ever.

We are also excited that, as of a few days ago, the gym in our home is finally complete. Hubby even built a plyo box and shelves for towels, shoes, cups, matts, and wipes; we have music, AppleTV, rubber floors, new paint, and a cross-fit interval clock. We purchased an Airdyne, treadmill, recumbent bike, squat rack, dumbbell set, bands, tubes, weight bench, stretching mats, and a water cooler.

There are no more excuses for not exercising in the mornings. None. I pray my first victory is to be cankle-less.

This is Day 0, version 2.0.

  • Starting size: 16, XXL
  • Weight: 234
  • Height: 5′ 8
  • Mood: Sick of feeling BLAH

Whole30 – Reintroducing Foods

The first Phase of Whole30 came to an end for me and hubby on February 22, 2018. As much as we were looking forward to reintroducing “bad” foods (per the Phase 2 plan), we wound up waiting until February 26! Ironically, it was just too inconvenient and a little scary to STOP eating the Whole30 way. Hubby and I are only about half way to our goal sizes, so we contemplated staying in Phase 1. However, we were also both curious as to the effects of different “bad” foods, so we took the gastrointestinal leap. Our reintroduction of alcohol/sugar, grain, dairy, and gluten yielded the following results:

Alcohol

Alcohol made sense as the first choice; I have been obsessing over wine since Day 1, and, we have a friend who has an extensive wine collection and loves to share. He’s been very disappointed in us over the last month-and-a-half or so, because we haven’t been able to partake in his wine offerings (Saturday night binges for old people). I believe his exact words were, “When are you going to be off of that stupid hippie diet?” So, we chose him as our first non-Whole30 experience in Phase 2.

Me: Holy muthafuggin headache. I was in pain for two days after two glasses of red wine. I probably should have kept it to one glass, but my inner lush was in attendance. Our friend serves some very rare bottles, and my palate was in heaven. Wine was not loving me back. Excedrin joined the party.

Hubby: Alcohol puffed him up, but he peed it out within 24 hours. Other than that, no issues.

Grain

Grain was a challenge because the only grain we could find that we would both eat, which also doesn’t contain gluten, is rice. Hubby isn’t a quinoa kind of guy.

Me: I felt inflamed and lethargic; noticeable lack of energy and a definite decrease in cognition. In short, I felt like shit. It took me all three days to recover from inflammation and fogginess caused by grain. I definitely can’t have grain on a work night. I was zombiefied the next day, compared to when I was eating clean, and people noticed.

Hubby: No issues. He retained a little water, but, again, peed it all out within a day. Said he felt great. WTF.

Dairy

Hubby was dying for cheese, so he bought like 1000 lbs of it from Costco. Cheese is delicious, but I feel like I need it to be melted. On pizza. Or lasagna.

Me: No issues with cheese at all (finally!) Butter, however, turned my stomach into a wild gymnast, causing the opposite of the normal effects of cheese. I was throne-bound for the night. I’m a ghee girl from now on.

Hubby: Apparently, cheese goes well with prunes. It doesn’t, but that’s how he had to eat his last few servings. Cheese is like colon cork for hubby.

I still want pizza.

Gluten

We waited to have a fancy cheat-meal before we had gluten in the form of Bad Boy Blue Bread at Boca; a delicious light Italian sourdough with flax and other tasty seeds coating the crust. So worth it.

Me: I started with the Bad Boy Bread, and Potatoes Soufflé appetizer, followed by Hamachi Crudo with grapefruit, then I had a Tajarin with Bolognese, and finished my entree course with a Branzino in Bouillabaisse.

Hubby: Hubby also started with the Bad Boy Bread and Potato Soufflé, followed by Scallops and Brussels Sprouts, then a Potato Gnocchi, and finally a three-meat Burger.

We split a Creme Brûlée for dessert.

Honestly, I thought I’d be in pure hell the next day over all the sugar and (I’m sure) butter, but I felt fine! As a matter of fact, I was down one pound after the end of the next day, and I didn’t feel awful! I certainly felt better than I did after eating rice the week before!

However, the next day, my Rosacea suddenly came back with a vengeance, like it was dormant and starving for either refined sugar or gluten! It was unbelievable how red and splotchy my cheeks and nose became! I actually got Rosacea cysts in my nostrils; so painful! It had to be the refined sugar or the gluten! My two favorite things, of course! We had tried everything else prior to that cheat meal.

Hubby said he over-ate and drank too much, so he was feeling pretty bad, but he said he’d do it all over again in a heart beat; the food really was THAT good. We figured we had better make our cheat meal count!

The Verdict

We found some unfavorable interactions with foods; mostly grain, gluten and sugar. We also didn’t lose any weight during reintroducing foods, but we didn’t gain weight back either.

After our reintroduction experiences, and numerous conversations, hubby and I decided that we are going to continue Whole30-style eating, with modifications; he will incorporate butter and rice; we will both eat cheese; and we will both stay gluten-free and refined-sugar-free except for the occasional cheat meal. I’m not going to go crazy with honey and agave either… I eat way too much of that when it’s in front of me; definitely SWYPO.

This will be our lifestyle, going forward…unless we are on vacation in Europe… ain’t nobody saying “no” to a Parisian croissant in this household.

Week 4 – The End is Near

Twenty missing pounds are shouting, “It works!” Whole30 works. It works very well, in fact. It’s a grueling, pain-in-the-ass, temporary, brutal “diet,” but it works better than anything I’ve ever tried in the past. Twenty pounds in 27 days. Not bad at all.

Don’t get me wrong – Whole30 is MUCH tougher to stay true to than most other things in life. I still have about three more days of the strictest phase of Whole30, but I’ve lost more weight on this plan in just under four weeks than I have on any other past attempts at a diet. The most fascinating thing to me was that I was able to do this without deliberately increasing my daily activity level one iota; I say “deliberately” because I naturally had more energy, so I squeezed more into my day, which resulted in more walking, etc. My Apple Watch activity rings were closing on a normal day of activity by the end of Week 2, whereas prior to Week 1, it looked like I had forgotten to wear my watch.

Whole30 eating, by itself, has resulted in 41 lbs total weight loss between me and hubby in just 27 days. Incredible. I have lost 20 lbs by just eating clean. That is astounding to me. I would kill myself on the treadmill in the past, and struggle, praying my relationship with gravity would decrease. I’ve heard that what you eat accounts for 80% of weight loss success, but I’d put that number even higher.

Non-scale Victories

Some non-scale victories hubby and I saw this week are:

  • Shirts are fitting more loosely
  • Able to zip up boots over cankles and calfs
  • The thought of having to climb stairs doesn’t seem like a Herculean feat
  • My watch band is no longer a tourniquet
  • Patience for stupidity has increased
  • I’m calmer in tense situations at work
  • I’ve become more pragmatic and less sensitive
  • I’m happier and I smile more
  • I have more energy
  • I feel “smarter” most of the time
  • I have more confidence
  • I require less sleep
  • I make a lot of things we previously store-bought; roasted mixed nuts, dried fruit, sausage, soups
  • Some restaurants will accommodate Whole30! Firebirds is one of them!
  • No, I didn’t eat the scrumptious bread that my lunch companion ordered

Some Things Never Change

Things that didn’t change, even though I hoped they would:

  • My hangry inner child is alive and well, throwing tantrums for red velvet cake
  • Cravings are at an all-time high. I can see why, when my friend hit Day 31 of Whole30, she went gangbusters on her cravings. I asked her, “How is the reintroduction of non-Whole30 foods going?” Her reply: “Well, I’m sitting in bed with a bottle of wine and a bowl of mac and cheese, so…. I guess… good?”
  • Acne is still playing Rudolph on my face
  • Cramps are still awful and debilitating like an evil gnome stabbing me in the gut
  • The gas. Dear sweet baby Jesus- THE GAS! Poor hubby. I decided to put Cayenne pepper in our chili to help the evil gnome cramps, but cayenne (like everything else) gives me awful gas! This last week was particularly mask-worthy. Hubby was beside himself and feared for his life for lack of oxygen. I tried to explain how Cayenne helps with cramps and his response was, “Oh! So, instead of you suffering through your period, I will!” Yes. Yes, you will.
  • Libido hasn’t increased. Perhaps it’s the gas? Or the angry hubby?
  • Pre-made meat patties contain sugar. Ain’t that some shit?
  • We both miss(ed) bread so much! Even the “healthy” breads all have some kind of sugar in them!

Holy Whole30! I was searching for Whole30 Bread online and I found an article about a girl who couldn’t eat anything; everything had to be grain free, gluten free, dairy free, and sugar free! This poor girl’s life will be Whole30 forever! Anyhow, she really missed bread… a lot…. and there were very few options out there for her. So, she and her mom spent hours trying different ingredients to create a simple bread recipe, and they came up with something brilliant. We had to try it! Immediately! We rushed into the kitchen and assembled all ingredients, then devoured the results. Granted, hubby and I should have calculated the calories before each consuming an entire “loaf,” but we were surprised at how much this stuff tasted like a cross between dense bread and a biscuit! We decided (a little late and almost 1000 Calories later) that 1/4 a loaf is plenty for one serving and we plan to make it again for breakfast with our eggs and homemade sausage. The recipe and article can be found on A Spicy Perspective. If you’re on Whole30 and craving bread, this is the best answer!

Basically, you beat two eggs, then add 1/2 cup of almond flour, 1/2 tsp baking powder, and 1/4 tsp Sea Salt. You can add lots of herbs if you want as well! Here’s the fun part: you put it in a straight-sided mug that has a few drops of olive oil in it to help the “bread” slip out, THEN, get this… you microwave it for three (3) minutes. Yes – MICROWAVE it! Fun, simple, and Whole30 compliant! Hubby and I both loved it! That bread hitting our mouths was like coming home. This brilliant girl named her creation, “Low Carb Magic Mug Bread.” You’ve GOT to try this stuff!

In a few short days, we start reintroducing foods. We are also discussing our go-forward plan. Stay tuned!

Week 3 – Getting used to Whole30

I started off Week 3 with the scale beaming a 15.6 lb total weight loss so far, which equates to just over 6%, and we are about 1/3 of the way through the HealthyWage challenge, where we sit in 6th Place as a team! THAT made me feel great! Especially since the boss’s team is currently in 45th Place.

Since my last post, I have been INSANELY busy! Working 10-14 hours per day and trying to eat well has been a serious challenge. Hubby and I have been pretty good about food prep, and my cabbage soup made 12 servings; thank goodness!

Cravings

We are both becoming used to this new, healthy way of eating, but we both still have major cravings! We are approximately 20 days into the Whole30 program; for him, his long lost love is bread, and for me, it’s wine. Together, we’re quite biblical!

I was lamenting to my boss last night that I miss having a glass of wine in the evenings… as Hubby and I watched him enjoy a glass of Carrera. I used to come home, start a fire, open a bottle with Hubby, and we would sit in our club chairs in front of the fire, chatting about our day, sipping in the relaxation. Now, we come home, grab a tall glass of water, and sit together bitching about this diet and all the foods we miss! Then we always say, “but it’s working!”

In addition to fighting cravings, it’s also tough to find anywhere to eat compliant foods! I keep choosing sashimi, and I have to go out to eat at least twice per week for business lunches. Not only is my staff getting tired of sushi, I probably have a tapeworm or some kind of fish-causing parasite by now.

Work is Going Well

Great news at work! My boss announced that I will have a Global Senior Leader position when the dust settles from the merger. All my hard work is paying off! However, last night he said that our Board presentations are going to take on a monthly cadence, going forward, which basically puts me perpetually in PowerPoint HELL. But, if he wants to pay me to make PowerPoint slides, who am I to complain?

Back to Whole30…

I’ve finally started to notice some non-scale effects of this way of eating! My body is so cold all of the time! I had to turn our thermostat up to 68°! It’s normally set at 64°. I also had to buy flannel sheets and put an extra blanket on the bed!

Hubby says that I have far fewer headaches, even though the stress of my job has increased. Major bonus there for our marriage.

My pants are finally looser and all my size 14s are now button-able without pliers and a vice grip. Size 16s are too big to wear without a belt. This tells me that, at least for me, there are about 15-17 lbs separating size 14 and size 16 at 5’8.

The Veggie Paradox

The biggest challenge so far (aside from no wine) is trying to find veggies that Hubby will eat. I am almost to the point where I’m just going to make him broccoli and make myself whatever I want.

We had a veggie convo last night….next to the fire…with our water… and I cycled through an entire alphabet of veggies with various preparations, trying to entice him to try them. The result? Here are some excerpts:

  • Me: “How about eggplant?”
  • Hubby: “Only breaded and fried.”
  • Me: “So, just broccoli?”
  • Hubby: “I like canned, French-cut green beans.”
  • Me: “We are not eating trailer park veggies. How about zucchini?”
  • Hubby looks at me like I broke his favorite power tool
  • Me: “Okay, no zucchini. Broccoli and cauliflower mash only. Really?”
  • Hubby: “I honestly wish I enjoyed vegetables, but ughck- most of them just taste like ass and yuck.”

Two flavors with which I am certainly not familiar, and I don’t want to know how/why he IS familiar.

So, the veggie battle continues…

Day 14 – Super Bowl Sunday. Tired! Sick?

It’s Super Bowl Sunday, but….Ever since the whole kneeling thing, I stopped watching football. Even the commercials kind of suck now, and that used to be part of the fun in watching the Super Bowl. I really don’t care who wins the Super Bowl this year. I bought squares in a pool at work, so I guess I’ll find out tomorrow if I won anything.

At 2:30am, my body decided to reject something I ate, and give me the gift of painful stomach cramps at the same time. Once again, a night of interrupted sleep. That’s now four nights in a row.

I went to bed after meal-prepping yesterday, just before midnight, and woke up at 7:45am (not including the intestinal assault). Waking up was difficult – my eyelids felt like they were taped shut. I eventually forced myself out of bed and got ready for the day, but I only lasted a few hours running errands before my stomach acted up again. Suddenly. This time, in Home Depot in front of a Sales Associate. Sorry, dude! Emergency!

So Tired

After that, I was so exhausted, I needed a nap like a tantrum-throwing pre-schooler, and I generally felt lethargic and grumpy. I ate some leftover broccoli and cauliflower mash, then went to bed at 5:00pm. It’s now just after 7pm and my stomach is at it again.

The shittiest (no pun intended) part about today is that I barely ate anything, I expelled everything, and still gained a pound!!! That’s so messed up!!! Is my body holding onto water? What’s happening? And why is my stomach so messed up? Is it the fish? They said “sashimi grade” yesterday! Hubby’s tummy is fine. Is my body reacting to ghee? Did I pick up some strange bug? Whatever it is, I’d gladly buy it a one-way ticket back to from where it came!

I’m not hungry for dinner, for obvious reasons…. so, I’m probably going to just try to go back to sleep. Today was a not-so-great day for my Whole30.

What Little I Did Eat

This bit of food I did eat amounted to 986 Calories, and I’m truly not hungry. My tummy has other things on its mind than receiving food…

  • B: Eggs w/ Spinach, Turkey Sausage, piece of orange
  • L: A bite of Meatball and Zoodles, Cauliflower Mash, Blasted Broccoli, Prunes
  • No din din – tummy boycott
  • S: Rx Bar

I’m going to assume it was the ghee and take that back out of my diet for awhile. I also haven’t had red meat, except for a bite of meatball today, but I’m still feeling inflammation. Maybe I’m also consuming too much salt?

Here’s a progress picture. Tummy is going down, but still out and proud! Haha! I have less fat around my neck and face, but still have a loooooong way to go. I’m still a good 25 lbs above my wedding weight, where I thought I was a fat bride.

Day 13 – Food Prep!

As of this morning, I’m down 12 lbs so far. But, I usually spend Saturday mornings in bed, being super lazy and sloth-like. It’s the only day of the week I have time to do that, and it is glorious; no demands, no appointments, no obligations. Just me and my bed. Hubby always gets up early, which makes me grumble at him every Saturday morning around 7am.

Breakfast at 2pm? Sure! Why not? I can’t even begin to tell you how much we love the Pederson’s Whole30-approved bacon. We are trying to limit ourselves, because it is quite salty, but damn is it good! Bacon bliss.

Saturdays and Sundays are food prep days. We decided to avoid Whole Foods this weekend and shop instead at Fresh Thyme. We came out of Fresh Thyme paying 2/3 what we would normally pay at Whole Foods! Not to mention, in our locale, Fresh Thyme has a better selection! Bye bye, Whole Paycheck! I’ll still use your bags, though. They’re pretty convenient.

Don’t Skip Meals!

Hubby and I got busy during the day and missed “lunch,” (a meal between breakfast and dinner, which today would have occurred around 5pm) so we were beyond hungry while prepping food. This presents a challenge for portion control. We ended up grabbing a few Rx bars in lieu of lunch, but that’s not a habit I want to get into; using bars as meal replacements. They’re never as satisfying as you want them to be and they’re fairly Calorie-dense!

Something’s Fishy

Tonight, I tried my hand at cooking ahi tuna steaks and yellowtail. I really wanted to try both to see if it was worth purchasing again. By the way – Holy crap! Sashimi grade fish is expensive AF!

Anyhow, I found a recipe, made it my own, fired up one steak of each and split it with hubby. We wound up eating about 8 oz of fish each – too much; 4oz would have been PLENTY. Our eyes may have been more ravenous than our bodies, because it didn’t look excessive on our plates, but we could barely finish it. We should probably use the smaller plates.

Upon logging our Calories into MyFitnessPal, we discovered dinner was 800+ Calories! No wonder we were ready to burst! Nonetheless, the ahi turned out awesome! Soooo delicious and so simple! We will be having that again for sure! The yellowtail was good, but we both liked the ahi better.

Just in case you want to replicate tonight’s masterpiece:

Ahi Recipe – Serves 2

  • 1 Ahi Tuna Steak, divided
  • 2 TBSP Ghee
  • 2 TBSP Olive Oil
  • 1 TSP Cayenne Pepper
  • 1/2 TSP Sea Salt
  • 2 TBSP Peppercorns

Cooking Instructions

  1. Season fish with salt and cayenne pepper
  2. Heat ghee, olive oil, and peppercorns in a skillet until peppercorns pop
  3. Gently add fish:
  • 1 min per side for rare
  • 1.5 min per side for medium-rare
  • 2 min per side for medium
  • 2.5 & 2 min per side for medium well
  • 3 min per side for obliterated – you know what? Don’t even bother buying this beautiful and very expensive fish if you don’t like any pink in the middle

Squeeze lemon juice on top to taste. Hubby made cauliflower mash and blasted broccoli as our veggies for the night. It was all very good, and filling.

Healthy Eats Side Effect

I love broccoli. Why doesn’t it love me? Why do I always have incessant broccoli burps for hours after eating broccoli? So gross. It’s like a nasty mouth fart. Not awesome.

More Meal Prep Creativity

Meal prepping continued with a “What do we need to cook up?” concoction that I’ll just call Cabbage Chicken Soup. Hubby also took a few of the chicken breasts and made more chicken and Whole30 gravy; it’s the closest thing to comfort food that we have been able to make while on Whole30.

I’m really not sure how the soup is going to taste, but we certainly have plenty of veggies in that Instant Pot! The veggies in the fridge were all starting to turn at once, sooooo…. soup!

All of Instant Pot’s 10 quarts’ capacity was required in the making of this mystery soup; celery, carrots, onions, tomatoes, cabbage, garlic, green beans, and chicken. The aroma is divine. I’m just not sure about having added the chicken. Regardless, I’m sure hubby will eat it. He eats everything I make. He just told me, “98% of the time, it’s really good!” I’m pretty sure the other two percent consists of a rice mishap and a waffle fiasco, each circa 2015.

Instant Pot Love

I know I’ve said it before, but I LOOOOOVE my Instant Pot! Nom Nom Paleo (where I discovered Instant Pot) has awesome recipes, and I only need to modify some (like the meatballs) slightly for Whole30.

Here’s the mystery soup, in progress:

Today’s Grub

I came in a little light on Calories at 1474, due to missing lunch and trying to make up for it with an Rx Bar. However, I’m full as hell right now from dinner. No need for even more Calories:

  • B: Eggs w/added egg whites, bacon, kale-spinach-green apple smoothie
  • L: Rx Bar
  • D: Ahi Tuna Steak, Yellowtail, Broccoli, Cauliflower Mash (way too much food, in retrospect)
  • S: None today

These broccoli burps are revolting. WTF. Hubby may want to sleep in the other room tonight. Blech.

Day 12 – Mental Acuity!

One of the Whole30 non-scale victories is feeling sharper and thinking more clearly. I finally noticed this was occurring today! My memory is much better as well!

I was having a conversation today, with someone who normally intimidates me, and I was surprising myself with the insightful contributions leaving my mouth! This is exciting! I also slept for a full 8.5 hours last night, which had to have helped.

The “bacon on the plate” (since I can’t have “icing on the cake”), was that I didn’t feel tired at all by the end of the day, like I have in the past. I used to be so exhausted when I got home, that I would practically cry at the thought of having to ascend the 15 or so stairs to get to the bedroom! This is a fantastic non-scale victory!

If Only…

It’s a shame that greater patience and higher tolerance for aggravating people are not Whole30 non-scale victories as well. I could’ve used some of that today… well… every day.

I mean, WHO – after receiving a message that someone is too busy to attend a meeting and they’re heads-down to complete a deliverable, expressing they’re compressed for time due to time zone differences on completing said deliverable AND displaying a status of DND

-WHOOO goes to that busy person’s desk right after they receive the meeting “decline” and message, ignores the DND sign, and interrupts their work to ask if they “have two minutes” (if I did, my sign wouldn’t be up and I wouldn’t have panic on my face)… AND when the busy person politely requests the entitled person come back later, THE JERK STARTS YAMMERING ANYWAY! About shit that doesn’t matter!! WHO DOES THAT?!?!? I’ll tell you who! A narcissistic, egomaniacal, snake of an ass hat. THAT’S WHO! Ugh!

Deep breath…

Cheers (with water) to the Freakin’ Weekend

I actually left work today while the sun was still up. Well, technically, it was setting, but there was definitely still light outside! I rushed home to enjoy some peace and quiet in our hearth room before hubby came home and peppered me with questions about dinner. This is my version of decompressing without wine; an easy-read (yet informational) book, tall glass/cup of cold water, a fire burning, and a view of the sunset. Life is a-ok. This is Friday night for old, tired people.

The weekend is finally here, and I plan to stay home and relax! Hubby and I may do a little shopping and food prepping, but my ass needs a staycation.

Comida de Hoy

Only 1211 Calories today, in the following forms:

  • B: Eggs and BACON!!!! Bacon bacon bacon bacon. I love BACON! Pederson’s was really tasty!
  • L: Chicken and Hubby’s Whole30 Gravy
  • D: Argument with hubby over finances
  • S: Rx Bar, Mixed Nuts

I felt really good today! Sharper mind, less tired, and two fewer pounds on the scale! Plus, it’s Friday! Yay! At least, it seemed like a “yay” day until dinner time.

Day 11 – Bacon!!!

Bacon makes everything taste better. I miss bacon. Since beginning Whole30, I haven’t had any bacon! The absence of bacon in my and hubby’s lives has been a deep and bleak void.

Every brand of bacon in the Whole Foods near my home has sugar as a top ingredient! I had no idea until Whole30 that bacon (peppered, dry rub, you name it…) has sugar in it!

Today, our lives were changed forever.

I found a store called Fresh Thyme Farmer’s Market that was a convenient stop on my way home from work. I specifically went in for pork loin, coconut aminos (a Whole30 soy sauce substitute) and some Rx bars, but lucky for me, I had to pass the packaged meat section to get to the pork loin.

On a whim, and with a heavy heart as I anticipated imminent defeat, I began reading labels… disappointment after disappointment – Sugar. Sugar. Sugar…until I stumbled upon a package with an unmistakable brand in the corner and a halo glowing overhead. Pederson’s Bacon!!! With a tear in my eye and my heart a flutter, I pranced to the checkout, eager to bring home this fabulous find to the hubby.

The Big Reveal

Hubby greeted me in the kitchen and began unpacking my groceries. When he saw the bacon, he was beaming ear to ear and I thought I saw a tear glisten in his eye. He looked up at me, wrapped me in a bear hug and started jumping up and down in sync with me like we had just won the lotto, all the while squealing, “Bacon! Bacon! Bacon!”

*wipes tear* It was beautiful.

Pork Loin – Bacon’s First Cousin

We decided on Pork Loin and Brussels Sprouts for dinner; I really wanted to use bacon, but hubby is guarding it like a precious commodity and will only allow it for breakfast. The Sprouts weren’t nearly as good without bacon.

I made it through the day, despite a 3am wake up to finish the presentation slides for my boss. They’re still not done to his satisfaction, so I’ll likely be working all weekend. Four times per year (once per quarter) – I just keep telling myself – that’s the only time I have to do this… breathe…

Stress was high today, and I was definitely tired, but food was pretty easy. The cravings were held at bay, likely because I was so busy, and hunger was minimal… or maybe I was just too tired to give a shit.

Yesterday’s Foot Joint Pain

The foot/toe is feeling much better. I decided not to have any beef today because of the sore joint thing. I also wore different shoes. The pain subsided substantially, so I may lay off beef for awhile. I’m unsure of the cause, since I also changed up my shoes, but I may wait until after Day 30 to reintroduce beef. Good thing Nick’s Sticks come in Turkey Jalapeño!

The Grub

At 1838 Calories, I was slightly over my target, yet again. The Calorie culprits included:

  • B: Egg Whites w/ Spinach, Turkey Sausage, Kale-Spinach-Green Apple smoothie
  • L: Crab, Shrimp, Scallops Sashimi, Coconut Aminos
  • D: Pork Loin, Brussels Sprouts, and a Bacon happy dance
  • S: Dried Mangoes, Nick’s Turkey Sticks, Wild Zora Lamb and Veggie bar (yum!)

Still working on regaining my energy. Sleep deprivation is absolutely playing a role. Early to bed for me tonight.

Day 10 – Losing Footing

Sleep evaded me last night, again. Hubby’s phone went off at 3am (he forgot to put it on silent before bed), so I only got 3.5 hours of sleep. That makes 7.5 hours of sleep in 72 hours, and tonight won’t be any better. I have to be awake at 3am for a call with my boss, overseas. I’m so tired, I want to cry.

And the cravings. Oh my gawd, the cravings! If I had any kind of beer or wine in front of me, I would drink it. I day dream of huge cakes, donuts, and chocolate covered bacon. Salivate even. My choco-hound magnet in my stomach is on full power and I know hubby has a Toblerone bar in the house somewhere. I can practically smell it.

Cravings and extreme fatigue aside, I seem to also be experiencing some kind of pain in the metatarsophalangeal joint of my left foot. This morning, it was more nagging and annoying than anything. Now, it’s painful and I’m hobbling like one of those wind-up toys with no knees. It’s late, so I’m heading to bed and keeping this short tonight. If I don’t get decent sleep soon, you may find me eating my way through a mound of cupcakes, mumbling to myself between bites.

Food (if you can call it that)

I am way under my Calorie goal at 1353 today. Funny thing is, I’m not even hungry. Cravings are out of control, but I’m not truly hungry. Food hasn’t tasted great to me since I returned home from Cali.

  • B: Egg whites with spinach and homemade turkey sausage
  • L: Chicken breast and Whole30 gravy, made by hubby
  • D: Rubbery Cod that tasted like it came out of a microwaved TV dinner, Blasted Broccoli, and Sautéed Asparagus
  • S: Rx Bar, Nick’s Turkey Sticks

Food sucked today. It made me sad. Here’s another rubber fish:

Day 9 – Exhausted

Does a combination of travel and fatigue cause increased hunger? For the last two days, I’ve been eating over my target Calories, and I’m only eating when I’m hungry (at least, I’m pretty sure I’m doing that). I’m not “holy-shit” over the target… but total daily Calories are slowly creeping into triple digits more than I should be having.

I only lost .4 lbs over the weekend. I’m hoping I’m just bloated from flying and sitting for hours, and that more weight will come off tomorrow or the next day. When doing the metabolism vs intake math, I should have lost two (2) full pounds.

Yesterday was one of the toughest travel days I’ve had in awhile. I wouldn’t be surprised if both stress and fatigue were causing me to hang onto some weight.

The boss is overseas this week, so the office is extremely quiet. I’m trying to get some slides done for him for a big meeting this week, and the added pressure is giving me anxiety. I need to start working out to relieve that pressure in a healthy way – especially if I’m not drinking that one magical glass of wine during the evening to relieve the tensions of a stressful day.

Wine & Cake are Bae

That reminds me… as I was leaving my parents’ house this weekend, I saw this on the counter:

My two favorite things. Together.

Somebody hates me.

Scared of Salmon

Today was really uneventful; more sushi for lunch – although I have decided to temporarily forego salmon sashimi due to the recent article and YouTube video about the sushi fanatic with a 5.5′ tapeworm that he pulled out of his own butthole and wrapped around a toilet paper tube (which, by the way, I thought were called ‘dootdoodoos’ until I was like 25 years old: Thanks, Mom! But, I digress), which he THEN brought into the ER to show a doctor what was giving him stomach aches and making his butthole bleed! OMFG. I can’t make this shit up. It all went down in Fresno.

Anyhow, I had amaebi (sweet shrimp), scallops, and yellowtail today instead of my beloved salmon (my favorite sashimi). All quite delicious… and beautifully presented! I avoided the sauce and used only lemon. I still haven’t purchased Aminos (soy sauce substitute) – I keep forgetting!

More Whole30-ish Snacks

Hubby and I did slip up on accident tonight. I ordered snacks from a link on the Whole30 website, called Wild Zora Meat and Veggie Bars. I got a sampler pack to share with Hubbs to figure out if/what we should order in bulk. I just assumed hey would all be Whole30 compliant – I paid no attention to the fact that one (and only one) of the flavors had Parmesan cheese in it! It was a minuscule amount, but it was still a non-compliant food. We each took one bar (they’re tiny), and began chomping. “Wow! These are good!…. too good… let me check the ingredients.” Sure enough – Parmesan cheese! By that time, we had each had one little square. I’m sure it was less harmful than the two Excedrin I took on migraine day. We checked the other packages, and they’re fully compliant. The snack was surprisingly tasty, and we both can’t wait to try the others, but it was a good lesson in “Always read the labels!!!”

Only the Whole30-compliant packages are pictured here. These tasty little protein bundles come from wildzora.com, where they say, “Don’t be a Jerky!”

Cute.

Stuffed Myself Today On:

My total Calorie intake today was 1948. Yikes! 148 Calories over budget, and I didn’t exercise to make up for it. I’m not sure why I was so hungry.

  • B: Eggs w/ Spinach and Homemade Turkey Sausage
  • L: Sashimi
  • D: Zoodles and Whole30 Meatballs
  • S: Dried Mango (1.5 bags – something tells me that THIS is where I blew it. Half a bag is one serving), Nick’s Sticks, and a Whole30 Imposter Wild Zora Veggie and Meat Bar